I managed to work my ass off while going to school, being able to maintain a full time job and my sanity (sort of). I graduated from school and immediately started to look for a new job that I could actually make into a career. I was excited for this new opportunity. I had received a job interview, an offer, and a start date all within a week and I was so HAPPY! I was finally going to be able to work normal hours, have a salary that was livable, and health care! Things were falling into place. After completing all my paperwork for the new job I submitted my resignation letter to my current employer and said good bye to coworkers, clients, and kiddo's. It was sad to go but I was excited all at the same time. I spent the weekend volunteering and keeping me busy since I didn't have to prepare to do an overnight like I normally do and I was LOVING it! THEN...
Last Friday at 4:30PM I received a call from the VP of HR of my new found employer that they are required to resend all job offers until at least March. The job would be re posted when they are able to hire again and if I was still interested to resubmit my resume directly to HR so I could be "first pick". I was supposed to begin on MONDAY! I was DEVASTATED! Not only was I in a place that I could not totally freak out since I was volunteering but I was now without a job, without a paycheck. I was given a break a bit later got into my car, called my mom and just cried. I was at a total loss.
I was SOOOOOO Happy that I had stuff to do this weekend so it kept my head above water for at least a few more days. I did receive a call on Saturday from a place that I had submitted my resume to quite sometime ago so that was a blessing. I went to my interview yesterday so we shall see how that turns out. I have applied to 19 places over the past 3 days and am praying that something happens soon. I'm going to go apply for my substitute teaching certificate tomorrow and hope something comes from that too. I need something SOON!
I know that there are millions of people in my situation and are in worse situations. I am thankful that I don't have a family to care for and that this really only influences me. I can't imagine what those families are doing who have a spouse, children, animals, a home, etc, who are facing the same situation. It's devastating, scary, and real. I pray that everyone who is out there searching for a job that they may find something soon. Please pray for the same.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Graduation Pics
HAPPY GRADUATION DAY TO ME!
This is one of my bestest friends, Kelly, who helped me every step of the way. Without her, this day probably wouldn't have come at all. She helped me get out of bed in the morning, kept me company at lunch, brought me coffee, and made me laugh. She helped me with homework and studying for tests. She was there for me when I was down and about to give up, celebrated completed tests and the last day of each semester, and understood exactly what I was feeling each step of the way. I am so thankful for Kelly. I love this woman!
Here is my Mom and my Grandma. They have been so encouraging and have never given up on me. My mom is my hero and without her example I would be totally lost in this world.
GO SUN DEVILS!
This is one of my bestest friends, Kelly, who helped me every step of the way. Without her, this day probably wouldn't have come at all. She helped me get out of bed in the morning, kept me company at lunch, brought me coffee, and made me laugh. She helped me with homework and studying for tests. She was there for me when I was down and about to give up, celebrated completed tests and the last day of each semester, and understood exactly what I was feeling each step of the way. I am so thankful for Kelly. I love this woman!
Here is my Mom and my Grandma. They have been so encouraging and have never given up on me. My mom is my hero and without her example I would be totally lost in this world.
GO SUN DEVILS!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
The Holidays
When I figure out how to actually post pictures on here I will put some up from Graduation...if anyone (as most of you do) knows how to post pics on here if you could kindly help out the loser who has no idea it would be greatly appreciated :-)
After graduation I went to Texas for Christmas. I drove to Midland with my mom and celebrated with my Uncles, Aunts, my sister, my mom and my Grandma. I slept for more hours in my 4 days there than I think I did all year and loved every minute of it. There is something about G'ma's house that makes sleeping so easy. I don't know if it's the bed, the dark room, the smell, the safety, the fact that it's my Grandma's, but I slept soundly. We relaxed at home on Christmas day, completed a puzzle, watched TV, and had our Christmas dinner. We weren't actually celebrating our Christmas until the next day when my other Uncle and his family could join us. The next day we got up and began with a tribute to my Grandpa who had passed away earlier this year. He LOVED See's Candy and every year he was given a pound of See's Candy if not more than that. We did our tribute and opened a box of candy in honor and remembrance of my Grandpa. It definitely started out the day just right. We then had our Christmas lunch and then opened presents. It was fun to watch my cousins get excited about their gifts and get to know my Aunt Elaine who I haven't been able to spend any time with since she and my uncle got married. Afterwards, the girls went shopping and then came back home to work on a new puzzle (it's a family thing that we do at my Grandparents). When we got tired we went to bed and got up the next morning to start on the puzzle all over again. My uncle's went out to Chuck E Cheese with my cousins (who are 4 and 6) and the girls went out shopping to the mall. We came home and worked on the puzzle until it was time for dinner. We went down to the Country Club for dinner and it was just wonderful! I love the club and it has very special memories. Everything from the years at the pool and tennis lessons, golf cart rides through the course, or my uncle's wedding where I had wear the most annoying dress ever because it itched so bad, the memories are there. I remember breakfast buffet's on Sunday and practicing my proper etiquette when we would go there for brunch. It was just a perfect way to end the weekend. We had a delicious meal with delicious wine and we dined. My Grandma always tells us if we are just eating or if we are dining. Dining would imply taking our time and enjoying the company we were in. We only "ate" when we had somewhere to go afterwards. We returned home and tried to finish the puzzle but were not able to before I just had to go to bed. Mom and I were leaving the next morning and I had work that night we returned so I needed all the sleep I could get. I wish we could have finished it but there will be another year and another puzzle I am sure.
I spent New Year's eve with David and his family and went to bed early cause I'm a total loser who was working promptly at 6:30AM on New Year's Day. I made my New Year's resolutions and am prepared for the New Year. I think that it's my favorite holiday. Something about the new start makes it wonderful.
I hope that this year brings everyone the greatest of joys and accomplishments. I'm excited to see where this year takes me! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
After graduation I went to Texas for Christmas. I drove to Midland with my mom and celebrated with my Uncles, Aunts, my sister, my mom and my Grandma. I slept for more hours in my 4 days there than I think I did all year and loved every minute of it. There is something about G'ma's house that makes sleeping so easy. I don't know if it's the bed, the dark room, the smell, the safety, the fact that it's my Grandma's, but I slept soundly. We relaxed at home on Christmas day, completed a puzzle, watched TV, and had our Christmas dinner. We weren't actually celebrating our Christmas until the next day when my other Uncle and his family could join us. The next day we got up and began with a tribute to my Grandpa who had passed away earlier this year. He LOVED See's Candy and every year he was given a pound of See's Candy if not more than that. We did our tribute and opened a box of candy in honor and remembrance of my Grandpa. It definitely started out the day just right. We then had our Christmas lunch and then opened presents. It was fun to watch my cousins get excited about their gifts and get to know my Aunt Elaine who I haven't been able to spend any time with since she and my uncle got married. Afterwards, the girls went shopping and then came back home to work on a new puzzle (it's a family thing that we do at my Grandparents). When we got tired we went to bed and got up the next morning to start on the puzzle all over again. My uncle's went out to Chuck E Cheese with my cousins (who are 4 and 6) and the girls went out shopping to the mall. We came home and worked on the puzzle until it was time for dinner. We went down to the Country Club for dinner and it was just wonderful! I love the club and it has very special memories. Everything from the years at the pool and tennis lessons, golf cart rides through the course, or my uncle's wedding where I had wear the most annoying dress ever because it itched so bad, the memories are there. I remember breakfast buffet's on Sunday and practicing my proper etiquette when we would go there for brunch. It was just a perfect way to end the weekend. We had a delicious meal with delicious wine and we dined. My Grandma always tells us if we are just eating or if we are dining. Dining would imply taking our time and enjoying the company we were in. We only "ate" when we had somewhere to go afterwards. We returned home and tried to finish the puzzle but were not able to before I just had to go to bed. Mom and I were leaving the next morning and I had work that night we returned so I needed all the sleep I could get. I wish we could have finished it but there will be another year and another puzzle I am sure.
I spent New Year's eve with David and his family and went to bed early cause I'm a total loser who was working promptly at 6:30AM on New Year's Day. I made my New Year's resolutions and am prepared for the New Year. I think that it's my favorite holiday. Something about the new start makes it wonderful.
I hope that this year brings everyone the greatest of joys and accomplishments. I'm excited to see where this year takes me! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
A SURVEY FOR 2008
Stole this from another blog... looked like a good thing to do! I copied Kathy :-)
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? GRADUATE COLLEGE
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I DON'T REMEMBER THEM SO CLEARLY I DIDN'T I KEEP THEM. I'LL TRY BETTER THIS YEAR.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? MANY OF MY FRIENDS DID AND THE GIRLS THAT I HAVE WORKED WITH AT THE GROUP HOME.
4. Did anyone close to you die? YES
5. What countries did you visit? STAYED IN THE USA
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? TIME FOR MYSELF
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? DECEMBER 19TH. I GRADUATED AND IT WAS THE MOST INCREDIBLE DAY I HAVE EVER EARNED!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? HAVE I MENTIONED GRADUATION?
9. What was your biggest failure? I DON'T THINK I HAVE ANY ALTHOUGH I SURE CAME CLOSE MULITPLE TIMES. IT WAS A ROUGH ROUGH ROUGH YEAR.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? NOTHING SERIOUS.
11. What was the best thing you bought? I DON'T EVEN KNOW. I WAS TOO POOR TO PURCHASE MUCH SO THE FACT THAT THE BILLS GOT PAID WAS PRETTY DAMN IMPRESSIVE!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? MY MOM FOR ONE. SHE IS THE MOST INCREDIBLE WOMAN AND WITHOUT HER I WOULD BE A LOST SOUL. AND MY FRIEND KELLY WHO WITHOUT HER I WOULD NEVER HAVE MADE IT THROUGH SCHOOL. SHE KEPT ME GOING WHEN I WANTED TO SLEEP, QUIT, OR DRINK :)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and/or depressed? I WORKED IN CHILD AND FAMILY SERVICES AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR AND SAW VERY VERY SAD THINGS. I WISH I COULD HAVE DONE MORE.
14. Where did most of your money go? BILLS
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? GRADUATION
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? THERE ARE SEVERAL: TIED TOGETHER WITH A SMILE: TAYLOR SWIFT, ONE STEP AT A TIME: JORDIN SPARKS, THE SONG REMEMBERS WHEN: TRISHA YEARWOOD...THERE ARE OTHERS THAT SIGNIFY IMPORTANCE AT SPECIFIC MOMENTS BUT THESE SEEMED TO BE ONES THAT CARRIED THROUGH THE YEAR
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:i. happier or sadder? thinner or fatter? HAPPIER AND THE SAME
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? TALK TO MY LONG DISTANCE FRIENDS.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? WORKING. ALTHOUGH THAT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO, I STILL WISH THAT THERE WAS A WAY TO HAVE WORKED LESS.
20. How will you be spending New Years? I SPENT IT WITH DAVID, WORKING, AND SLEEPING.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008? I SAY YES.
23. How many one-night stands? NONE TO SPEAK OF
24.What was your favorite TV program? DAYS OF OUR LIVES. IT IS MY TRUE GUILTY PLEASURE.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? NOT HATE.
26. What was the best book you read? THE ONLY NON SCHOOL BOOK I RECALL READING IS "CHANGE OF HEART" BY JODI PICOULT. I LOVE ALL HER BOOKS AND WAS SOOOO HAPPY THAT SHE CAME OUT WITH A BOOK THIS YEAR. I WOULDN'T HAVE READ ANYTHING ELSE FOR PLEASURE OTHERWISE.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? KATE VOEGELE AND NATASHA BEDDINGFIELD...IS THAT CONSIDERED A MUSICAL DISCOVERY?
28. What did you want and get? A COLLEGE DEGREE
29. What did you want and not get? TIME
30. What was your favourite film of this year? JUNO
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I TURNED 27 AND I WENT TO DINNER TO MY FAVORITE PLACE
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying. LANDING MY DREAM JOB
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? COMFORTABLE
34. What kept you sane? KELLY AND THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? UH...NONE??
36. What political issue stirred you the most? HEALTH CARE AND THE MARRIAGE PROP
37. Who did you miss? MY LONG DISTANCE FRIENDS MORE THAN EVER
38. Who was the best new person you met? THERE ISN'T ANYONE THAT COMES TO MIND THAT MAKES IT ON THAT LIST. I WAS TOO BUSY TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS THAT WOULD ACTUALLY HIT THE TOP OF THAT LIST. I MET NEW PEOPLE, I HAVE HAD FUN WITH DIFFERENT PEOPLE, BUT THE PEOPLE I ALREADY HAD IN MY LIFE ARE THE ONES THAT HAVE REALLY MADE THIS YEAR GREAT.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. LOVE YOURSELF LIKE YOU LOVE YOUR FRIENDS, NEVER GIVE UP, CRYING IS OK.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. WELL THE LYRIC THAT PROBABLY SUMS IT UP IS FROM "TIED TOGETHER WITH A SMILE"
hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone
I SPENT THE ENTIRE YEAR SMILING AND LAUGHING WITH OTHERS BUT I CRIED ALL THE TIME WHEN I WAS ALONE. IT WAS A ROUGH YEAR TO GET THROUGH AND PEOPLE WOULD TELL ME ALL THE TIME THAT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW I MANAGED IT ALL AND THEY COULD NEVER DO WHAT I DID. WHAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW IS THAT I CRIED IN MY CAR, I CRIED BEFORE I WENT TO BED, AND I CRIED WHEN I WOKE UP. I CRIED WHEN I WALKED TO CLASS AND I CRIED WHEN I GOT OUT OF CLASS. I CRIED AT WORK AND I CRIED AT HOME. IT WAS THE ONLY EMOTION I HAD LEFT. BUT NO ONE KNEW IT BECAUSE I SMILED AND I LAUGHED AND I ACTED AS THOUGH LIFE WAS A-OK. BUT IT TURNED OUT WONDERFUL AND I MADE IT. EVERYDAY WAS WORTH IT IN THE END.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? GRADUATE COLLEGE
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I DON'T REMEMBER THEM SO CLEARLY I DIDN'T I KEEP THEM. I'LL TRY BETTER THIS YEAR.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? MANY OF MY FRIENDS DID AND THE GIRLS THAT I HAVE WORKED WITH AT THE GROUP HOME.
4. Did anyone close to you die? YES
5. What countries did you visit? STAYED IN THE USA
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? TIME FOR MYSELF
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? DECEMBER 19TH. I GRADUATED AND IT WAS THE MOST INCREDIBLE DAY I HAVE EVER EARNED!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? HAVE I MENTIONED GRADUATION?
9. What was your biggest failure? I DON'T THINK I HAVE ANY ALTHOUGH I SURE CAME CLOSE MULITPLE TIMES. IT WAS A ROUGH ROUGH ROUGH YEAR.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? NOTHING SERIOUS.
11. What was the best thing you bought? I DON'T EVEN KNOW. I WAS TOO POOR TO PURCHASE MUCH SO THE FACT THAT THE BILLS GOT PAID WAS PRETTY DAMN IMPRESSIVE!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? MY MOM FOR ONE. SHE IS THE MOST INCREDIBLE WOMAN AND WITHOUT HER I WOULD BE A LOST SOUL. AND MY FRIEND KELLY WHO WITHOUT HER I WOULD NEVER HAVE MADE IT THROUGH SCHOOL. SHE KEPT ME GOING WHEN I WANTED TO SLEEP, QUIT, OR DRINK :)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and/or depressed? I WORKED IN CHILD AND FAMILY SERVICES AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR AND SAW VERY VERY SAD THINGS. I WISH I COULD HAVE DONE MORE.
14. Where did most of your money go? BILLS
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? GRADUATION
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? THERE ARE SEVERAL: TIED TOGETHER WITH A SMILE: TAYLOR SWIFT, ONE STEP AT A TIME: JORDIN SPARKS, THE SONG REMEMBERS WHEN: TRISHA YEARWOOD...THERE ARE OTHERS THAT SIGNIFY IMPORTANCE AT SPECIFIC MOMENTS BUT THESE SEEMED TO BE ONES THAT CARRIED THROUGH THE YEAR
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:i. happier or sadder? thinner or fatter? HAPPIER AND THE SAME
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? TALK TO MY LONG DISTANCE FRIENDS.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? WORKING. ALTHOUGH THAT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO, I STILL WISH THAT THERE WAS A WAY TO HAVE WORKED LESS.
20. How will you be spending New Years? I SPENT IT WITH DAVID, WORKING, AND SLEEPING.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008? I SAY YES.
23. How many one-night stands? NONE TO SPEAK OF
24.What was your favorite TV program? DAYS OF OUR LIVES. IT IS MY TRUE GUILTY PLEASURE.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? NOT HATE.
26. What was the best book you read? THE ONLY NON SCHOOL BOOK I RECALL READING IS "CHANGE OF HEART" BY JODI PICOULT. I LOVE ALL HER BOOKS AND WAS SOOOO HAPPY THAT SHE CAME OUT WITH A BOOK THIS YEAR. I WOULDN'T HAVE READ ANYTHING ELSE FOR PLEASURE OTHERWISE.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? KATE VOEGELE AND NATASHA BEDDINGFIELD...IS THAT CONSIDERED A MUSICAL DISCOVERY?
28. What did you want and get? A COLLEGE DEGREE
29. What did you want and not get? TIME
30. What was your favourite film of this year? JUNO
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I TURNED 27 AND I WENT TO DINNER TO MY FAVORITE PLACE
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying. LANDING MY DREAM JOB
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? COMFORTABLE
34. What kept you sane? KELLY AND THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? UH...NONE??
36. What political issue stirred you the most? HEALTH CARE AND THE MARRIAGE PROP
37. Who did you miss? MY LONG DISTANCE FRIENDS MORE THAN EVER
38. Who was the best new person you met? THERE ISN'T ANYONE THAT COMES TO MIND THAT MAKES IT ON THAT LIST. I WAS TOO BUSY TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS THAT WOULD ACTUALLY HIT THE TOP OF THAT LIST. I MET NEW PEOPLE, I HAVE HAD FUN WITH DIFFERENT PEOPLE, BUT THE PEOPLE I ALREADY HAD IN MY LIFE ARE THE ONES THAT HAVE REALLY MADE THIS YEAR GREAT.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. LOVE YOURSELF LIKE YOU LOVE YOUR FRIENDS, NEVER GIVE UP, CRYING IS OK.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. WELL THE LYRIC THAT PROBABLY SUMS IT UP IS FROM "TIED TOGETHER WITH A SMILE"
hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone
I SPENT THE ENTIRE YEAR SMILING AND LAUGHING WITH OTHERS BUT I CRIED ALL THE TIME WHEN I WAS ALONE. IT WAS A ROUGH YEAR TO GET THROUGH AND PEOPLE WOULD TELL ME ALL THE TIME THAT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW I MANAGED IT ALL AND THEY COULD NEVER DO WHAT I DID. WHAT THEY DIDN'T KNOW IS THAT I CRIED IN MY CAR, I CRIED BEFORE I WENT TO BED, AND I CRIED WHEN I WOKE UP. I CRIED WHEN I WALKED TO CLASS AND I CRIED WHEN I GOT OUT OF CLASS. I CRIED AT WORK AND I CRIED AT HOME. IT WAS THE ONLY EMOTION I HAD LEFT. BUT NO ONE KNEW IT BECAUSE I SMILED AND I LAUGHED AND I ACTED AS THOUGH LIFE WAS A-OK. BUT IT TURNED OUT WONDERFUL AND I MADE IT. EVERYDAY WAS WORTH IT IN THE END.
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